Holla at G-O-D

So God,

I find it funny that you continue to take care of me. When I can't seem to add 2+2... you make a way. Like I truly don't understand. It's totally like You have the greatest bank account ever in life. Dude, You're amazing. How many times have You done for me when I didn't even expect it? Hmm? ANSWER ME!? (lol) and like, You just do it... completely right on time. Man God You must be like psychic or something, or maybe You created it all and know it all. Apparently You do. That's what people keep telling me. I was going to change my status... but I change it all the time. I just have to share with someone... YOU are THE MAN! You are my everything. I want no one but You.

I feel bad sometimes because like, I don't give You all of me 100% of the time. Sometimes I don't do all that is wonderful in your site. I be wanting to give you everything... and my life moves differently. Totally stupid on my part. Why would I not want to serve You with all of my everything? Please tell me where the investment in God can fail? Oh right... I want be as popular or self-praising... Gotya. Or maybe I just want do what I please and live life and be "real". If real is serving me, I choose being unreal.

The world can kick rock... big boulders... because they clearly can't move mountains like You can.

Gee thanks God.
You are my everything.
Love You Love You Love You!!!

Yeah so ... randomness

Hmm... so I think we should live our lives like it's an iPod. Should we look over life on shuffle we shouldn't have to skip any tracks.

Life is too short and so many people are thinking, doing and becoming things that in hindsight won't look so great. Life is so precious and we take it for granted... which is why we take others for granted and just do whatever in life.

I'm so sick of @trniii @masterluke103 @asdavis10 talking about boobs on twitter sorry #twitterconfidential... If they'd notice... the women aren't talking anymore. And there's no way for me to ignore a hashtag. Anywho I'm going to get twoasted once they read this... especially because I'm asking them to retweet it. lol.

I've clearly been at work and done little. Can't focus. :) not terribly bad though. I've accomplished things, just not as much as I'd like particularly. I did get to work an hour earlier than the day before and I plan to improve that.

Bleh. It's hot as HADES out there. my goodness... and it's May? WTW? What the mess and I supposed to do in July?

Note: I will not congratulate something I don't condone. Sorry. (refer to The Hills episode ) "I'm so happy for you" when I'm not? I even looked up congratulations... Here's what it means:

congratulations - expressions of pleasure or joy on another's success or good fortune, an expression of approval and commendation

So why lie? Just being real. If I don't feel it's "good fortune" why would I front? No my opinions are not the only opinion, I'm a firm believer in agreeing to disagree. I will always offer prayer because we all need it. But count on me being real about how I feel for the most part. 85% of the time. There are times when someone needs you to agree with them and baby them, I know the people and times where that's necessary. This may seem harsh, but would you prefer me to say "oooh girl I'm so happy for you congrats!! Wow... that's so great" or "ooh boy I'm so happy for you getting signed and your new album! That's so wonderful. Praise God!" and then go behind your back and say you made a stupid mistake? Now I won't tell you you made a stupid mistake to your face either because in all actually some mistakes can't be renigged. Simply because I may not condone or what not, doesn't mean I won't support an individual person. I still love them to death and that is clearly apparent because I would lie to you about how I felt if I didn't.

Please come back and close a door you walk out of. Life is not a barn. Opening another door isn't very effective. Don't depend on the draft to shut the other door. Do it properly.

Knees are killing me today... well not "killing". I just shouldn't have sprinted yesterday. A bit overzealous I was. Chip ran well though. It was even raining, which was actually nice.

Shopping is fun. Sometimes. *sigh* tiring. It also helps when you know what you're looking for. I see why there are so many designers out there. I would love to design my clothes. Clearly I don't care to spend hours shopping. Hopefully today will be the last day... most likely... it won't be.

Me likey

Me likey. And that is about all I'm willing to say. Whether the bird chirps. Whether it's just a blue light flashing. Me likey.

Perfect Timing

Today I got this email. It was right on time.

Psalm 16:1 Preserve me, O God: for in thee do I put my trust.

Thought for the Day: Place Your Trust Into The Hands Of The Lord

Reflection for the Day: Your Provisions Are Secure

David's life was a challenging one. His life was in constant danger yet he felt the security that God provided him. He placed his trust into the hands of the Lord knowing his provisions were provided for.

You will face numerous challenges in life, some may cause you to question the stability of your future. As you place your trust into the hands of the Lord you need not worry for God has made provisions for all of your needs.

To be completely honest there is so much going on I can't even put it to words, but I needed this email today. Lord knows. I just needed to spread the Word. smh. Keep pressing.

Get right. Eat right

Been meaning to write this one all day. So when you eat right/properly and eat healthy food it makes a WORLD of difference. Been doing what I need to, to eat right for the most part. It's funny. I've pulled up to Sonic twice. Two Times... um... clearly YOU don't know how much I love Sonic. Hmmm... let me explain. I used to go to Sonic just about every time I left the gym (don't judge me.. it's deep and it's real) EVERY TIME. I've been there twice for my post-workout pig-out and I can't seem to order. Grant it the people are taking a while to answer me, but I would even pull up to the drive-thru and then just drive off because I couldn't see anything I wanted to eat.

Ended up going to Arby's last night. THEY have the BEST kid's meal ever. Have you ever been asked apple sauce or fries? wow... smh... that was a different question to answer. I wanted to say fries. Fries are what motivated me to take my butt over there. Yet I couldn't resist saying Apple sauce. I felt my body would hold me accoutable for making a bad decision. Then they asked what I wanted to drink. They have juice "boxes"... that's the COOLEST thing ever in life. They're Capri Sun's 100% juices. Anywho... yeah I got popcorn chicken. It was still overall a better meal than what I had in mind.

Anyhow feeling good feelin great. Thanks JPop for motivation! :) she'll probably never read this... lol

Friday's randomness session (vol. II)

Mk... so God is UHhhhhmazing...

Anywho I would like to thank the person who came and mowed my lawn today!!! THANK YOU! Like I'm like my grandmother in that way, where if I want something done... I want it done then. It's super funny. I need to get a grasp on that, because I HATE when she does that to me. Praises be to GOD. Even though I may have to cut it from now on, it was very nice to prepare for work and know that my grass was being cut. Now I will take my raggedy self to home depot and get some weed and feed and go from there. I really appreciate YOU! Thanks... sorry for the previous blog... if you are even reading this... chances are, you aren't. lol.

So I went to workout yesterday and I mozied my way all the way there and guess what?? NO IPOD... I was so beyond heated. I almost went straight back home and waited until this morning. You have NO idea. I HATE... no no no I ABHOR working out without music. UGH! But I refused to lose. I did it. Thinking back it was so lame... ugh... anywho. I did talk to my gym-buddy much more than usual. That was cool. They were like,"What?!? Where are the headphones? You are the girl with headphones and the twist walking lunges" (lol) I stayed motivated and I made it through. Got to talk with my buddy. Although I had to listen to some stupid secular crap. One song in particular which is ALWAYS stuck in my head and I've only heard it a handful of times... upp... now I'm singing it... smh. lol.

Hm.. yeah God blessed this week. He always blesses... but just know... I'm a debt-fighting machine! Thanks to God... and it all started with me speaking life into my idea of eliminating debt.

I love my BFF Cournti so very much. Words cannot express. She is a gift from God. I love her dearly.

I'm sore... But I love it.

I got new running shoes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was so geeked. The day God gave me a little more jingle I decided to take my butt down to Fleet Feet and get good running shoes. I refused to continue to run without proper footwear and so I've really been missing running... but oh... look out world!! I'm coming at you with my Brooks! Kick pavement!

Um... Boss-employee relationship this week 4.4 stars

God is in control. Jesus take the wheel, imma just take a nap... I know you got this.

Loving my new friends. Having great GREAT conversations. Thanks God. I love you.

Hmm... yeah. lames... there are lames. lame lemon people. lamey lemony lame people. smh. and you thought you weren't lame. who are you? ha! lame

And that concludes my (first... possibly only) rant. lol

Choice words... ADSL vol. 3

Ok I have to let this out or else it will eat me alive. I am so freaking tired of men who claim they want to "be a man" and do the man things. So I ask if you'll cut my grass and you jump and say yes. It's going to rain by the day that you say that you'll do it so I go ahead and do it myself... then you have something to say about it. Nothing bad, just "I said I would do it, and you jumped and did it yourself" so I say to myself... let me be a "lady".

I give you another opportunity. I say "hey dear sir, you are more than welcome to come mow my lawn... let me know when you can it needs to be cut for sure"... and low and behold you drag your FREAKING feet and it's raining... and it will be raining until Monday. I wish I could strangle you right now... because now there will be a jungle in my backyard... and you know what? I'm going to mow my own (insert word) (and another word)(insert emotion) lawn! I am so through. You can't win for losing as an independent woman. Boy I tell ya. smh. smh. smh. Y'all ni&&as make me sick right now.

...guess I needed to let that out... been told that I can't be upset. It's a favor. Not their fault that it rained. So I will be patient I suppose. I just hate to come home to a raggedy lawn... *sigh* We'll see.

Dollar Menu

First you're there... I'm so geeked. Save me some money. I knew I could depend on you... then you go, without warning. No notice, just a higher price. I refuse to pay that. Now you want to come back once I've got all comfortable with the menu at Wendy's... nope. I'm straight.